I have returned from my personal silent retreat. I feel confident, and restored. I have found pieces of me I was sure I had lost forever. I found a voice I forgot I even had.

I remember being confident, fully aware and satisfied with who I wasn’t and what my life plan was. I truly was happy to march to the beat of my own drum. I trusted in the people and places I could know love.

There are 2 kinds of love. The love you can feel without words, the love you don’t even want to speak to – because to put voice to the love would somehow taint it. Then there is the love you are told is love. The love you know is love of obligation and is dripping in responsibility. The love you are told is deep meaningful and forever. It comes without warmth or feeling.

Love with words is often cruel and punishing. Love with words is frequently jealous, always conditional, situational boisterous, and most dangerous of all – forever transactional. Love without feeling measures us, judges us, moulds us, pushes us yet erodes the very foundation on which we are build. Love that comes with words reflects our light onto its stage and basks in what should be our glory. Love without feeling slowly but methodically syphons our light – because it lacks what it needs to burn its own candle; it needs us to build its stage, and create its value.

Love you can feel engulfs you in its warm embrace, heals the wounds no one can see and applauds your glow without condition or clause. Love without words shine light into your dark and stormy heart, holds you close through the terror, silently draws you a map through the storm, and offers you safe harbour when you are overwhelmed by the waves.

Love without words keeps your fire going when the world outside is cold and dark. Love without words is your suit of gilded armour protecting your heart, healing your soul. It is indeed your unshakable stage and your brightest light.

Love without words makes you brave enough, bold enough to show the world your best self, your boldest vision and be okay when the world replies “You are not enough. Your ideas are ridiculous. You are worthless”. Love without words tells you “Lets show them just how wrong they are. You my dear are magnificent!”

Love without words is the voice you hear when you are alone, and scared. It is the the whisper who when you believe you cannot take another breath fills your lungs and whispers – “just one more”. When the darkness is so vast and so deep, the pressure so nearly crushing you believe you will be consumed and forgotten – Love without words is the pinhole of light radiating in eroding the darkness and the sound of butterfly wings lifting the weight.

Love without words ask only you keep your heart and ears open for its presents, it asks you not let the voices drown it out. Love without words ask only that you be brave enough to breath today.